Friday, October 14, 2011

A Great Grandma Indeed!

 Happy Birthday to the Matriarch of the Kasowski Clan!

So sweet! And her cooking? Amazing.

She knows how to put a baby to sleep!

Eli loved his snuggles from Great Grandma!

We are so proud (and blessed) to be related to this lady! We love you and miss you Grandma K!

Love, 
the SC Kasowski's

Wednesday, October 12, 2011

Schedule.

If you have a super awesome schedule for a 5 1/2 month old, a typical order of the day/night that, say, you used with your kid who is now a well-balanced, loving child, please let me know.

I wish these sweet things came with a kid-specific user manual.

-Heather

Avocado.


And yes, it looks about the same coming out the other end.

Eeew!

-Heather

Sunday, October 9, 2011

So Long Sleeveless.

Since cooler weather is approaching (it is, right?!?!), I decided to try wear out some of Eli's summer gear before it gets packed away to the attic. His bare arms are so stinkin' adorable. I had him in this sweet brown and blue monkey number on Friday so we went out on the front porch for a photo shoot. The problem is I have too many photos to choose from! This may get a little excessive... but don't judge me. It's hard to narrow down the cuteness of my blue-eyed boy.

 Don't mess with my bib.




 The event that brings us much, much enjoyment each weekday: Daddy's home!
 So glad you are home, Dad!


Ironically, as I am going through the 50+ photos I took of him being one happy baby on Friday, I can actually hear him screaming loudly protesting his nap. We've had a rough go of it the past day... I got a nasty migraine last night and Eli was having sympathy pains and up much of the night as well. We have one overly-tired boy and a few exhausted parents today! Very grateful for a day of rest!

-Heather

Thursday, October 6, 2011

18 Months of Longing.

Sigh.

It's been 18 months since we held our baby girl in our arms and had to say good-bye before we got to say hello. This grief journey has been hard living, harder than I ever imagined life to be. You hear of suffering, but you don't anticipate how it will hit you or how you will experience it. I am grateful for Maelee, for the good that we can see from her life and death. But I am still hurting, still longing for her. That's just how it's going to be.

Today is a bit of a milestone. I have outfits stored in the attic, I can even visualize a few, that are size 18 months. Though she probably would have been chunky like her brother so perhaps she'd already moved on from this size... oh but I wish her little fat legs were in those tights right now. I wish I was figuring out the cutest coordinating costumes for our two kids to wear for Halloween.

I know many people assume that we should be fulfilled parents because we have Eli. That's partially true. There are many hopes and dreams that our adorable guy is fulfilling for us. Hearing his first cry, knowing he was alive, will forever be one of the most deeply satisfying, redeeming moments for me. Enjoying our baby, getting to be responsible for this being, watching him hit all his "firsts" is just pure grace for us. Yesterday I actually held Eli during his nap because I just couldn't stop smelling him and holding him close. God has used Eli Joseph to heal much of our broken hearts and fill us with much, much joy.

Even so, our family is still not complete. It's missing her. We still have hard days. There are still triggers, good and bad, even after all this time. Last week I was shopping and saw these little shorts with cherries on them. At church one Sunday we saw someone we hadn't seen for a few years and she asked "Don't you have another child?" Greg is taking a "Crisis Counseling" class and they've been continually talking about grief and loss. October is Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness month. Eli will be wearing the "little pumpkin" pajamas that I had bought for Maelee...

The fact is, she's never far from my mind. Greg's either.

And we still love her.

This is the last ultrasound photo we have of Maelee alive. It was taken April 1, 2010, days before she died. She's sucking her thumb.


We miss you beautiful daughter, big sister. Someday. Some glorious day... we will get to hold you again.

-Heather

Wednesday, October 5, 2011

Mom's Wild Rice Soup.

Fall weather is here and that means soup! This is my go-to soup recipe because it's unique, easy, and it's from my mom so you know it's good. It's also forgiving and easily manipulated. When I made it yesterday I used way more rice and veggies than the recipe called for and tweaked it to how I'm feeling (read: I had two cans of cheddar cheese soup that had passed their "best by" date).

Wild rice is very hard to come by down south so I have it "imported" from family members coming to visit! If you are somewhere that doesn't have it, try a natural/organic food store that has bulk beans. Beware - it's spendy.

Here's the official recipe:

1 cup wild rice
3 cups boiling water
1 medium onion, chopped
3 stalks celery, chopped
2 carrots, chopped
1/2 green pepper, chopped
1/2 stick butter or margarine
2 cans chicken broth
1 can cream of celery soup
1 can cheddar cheese soup
1 4oz can sliced mushrooms
1 teasp salt
1/4 teasp pepper
1/4 teasp rosemary (VII: very important ingredient)
1 cup whipping cream

1. Add rice to boiling water, reduce heat and simmer, covered for 20-30 minutes (until the rice is close to done).
2. Saute onion, celery, carrots and green pepper in butter/margarine. Add to wild rice.
3. Add other ingredients except for the cream. Simmer 20 minutes.
4. Stir in cream, heat thoroughly and serve. Or put in the crock pot if you are serving at a party.

Random Thoughts / Variations 
I usually end up doubling this recipe, adding more rice and veggies. Therefore I use the 32 oz carton of chicken broth and maybe three cans of soup instead of  two (this time I used two cheddar cheese and one cream of celery). And I also used one pint whipping cream plus some half & half... I make this often enough that I know how creamy I want it to be. If you solely use half & half it won't taste as good. I use big pieces of mushrooms so I can pick them out easily. And I like pure wild rice but you could use a wild/brown mix if that's all you have. And if you need there to be meat, you could add chicken. If you are going to add a lot, make sure you use a big pot!

For all you visual folks, here's my somewhat step-by-step photo instructions. The lighting in our kitchen is bleh and I was watching Eli while cooking, so apologies for the lack of inspiration in my photos. They do the job.

Boil the wild rice:

Meanwhile, chop up your carrots, onion, celery and green pepper... into very, very small pieces. You will need a chopper so it looks like this:


Saute it all in butter or margarine:

When the rice is done, drain it mostly (leave a little water). Then add the sauteed mixture (like photo below) plus all the canned items and spices (forgot to take a photo of that pre-stirred):

Stir it all up and let it simmer for awhile, at least 20 minutes:

Then add the cream! 

Stir it up and you are done!

It's creamy, wild goodness and best served with a delicious fresh baguette! Now who wants to come over and enjoy it as leftovers with me today?

-Heather

Tuesday, October 4, 2011

Wha-lah.

I broke out some awesome today.

Why? A few reasons.

1. Eli had a great night last night. He woke up refreshed as did his parents. And with my extra energy, I made some food and took some photos.

2. Our good friend is sick. And in the southern tradition, I wanted to make her a meal. Note to self (okay, it's not self if I'm blogging about it): keep that tradition no matter where we live. It is such a blessing to have a meal made for you. In much of our suffering and some of our joy, folks have given us food. It makes you have warm fuzzies about people, humanity even. We all need some kindness, why not serve it up on a platter (or more realistically, tupperware)?

3. Pinterest. This blasted, sweet site has got me all distracted (thanks Linnea). If you don't know about it, basically you can "pin" images from any web site or "re-pin" from others on to your own little bulletin boards (that you create). I have boards like "someday I will buy this" and "someday I will eat this" and my newest "someday I will make my mom do this". Think recipes and do-it-yourself projects and design ideas and party things etc etc... an organized inspiration market if you will. I have only spent a few hours on this, but I've gotten all "I want to be more awesome" in those few hours.

4. Because of aforementioned site and links people post on facebook, I've come to realize there are a plethora of awesome blogs out there. Most of the ones I drool over involve recipe posting or crafts or photography or loving Jesus... but man, there are just some stinkin' awesome, creative, talented people out there. And I'd be lying if I said a little part of me felt disappointed, a little Brando-like "I could've been somebody", in dreaming that I'd could have been like the Pioneer Woman, etc. Yes, the pressure to be awesome after looking at just a few sites hit me. Frankly, there are way too many awesome blogs, I get overwhelmed looking at them all and just end up wasting time! For me, though, for now, I thought I could at least do little bits of awesome here and there, do what I can with what I have been given.

This all has resulted in a recipe post in the making and a few hours at Joann's Fabric/Craft store today... on top of me actually showering before noon, meeting up with Greg for lunch, a nice visit with a friend and some errands. Whew. 

Tomorrow I'll do my go-to soup recipe post for you. But to tie you over, this morning I had a super cute onlooker during my meal prep:


He is not old enough to be my taste tester, but someday perhaps!

-Heather

PS- If you'd like, I'll send you an invite to join Pinterest and start your own time-depleting yet highly-inspirational site, just let me know.

Saturday, October 1, 2011

Autumn Spices.

Happy Autumn, friends. What an awesome season. My favorite colors are all the rage. Jeans and sweatshirts are a possibility. The leaves are beginning to turn. We actually want to be outside because the weather in Columbia has transformed into downright gorgeous. And you can add pumpkin to everything.

I found some pumpkin spice bread BOGO at Publix this week. It's yum. Of course I could be awesome and make my own, but I am not that awesome yet. I had a slice today while enjoying some fitting seasonal apple cider this afternoon in my Maelee mug (the cherry pattern reminds me of her, of an outfit I had for her). Again, I could make my own apple cider spice mix but since high school I have loved Aspen Mulling Spices. It is fall season in a cup.

Go get some. Try a nifty gifty shop in your area, often they have it. Add it to apple juice, warm it up. You will love it. You will want to curl up with it.


Now all I need is to break out the molasses and get baking some ginger snap cookies...

-Heather