I want things in my life to settle, I want our girl to settle.
Annalee seemed better the few hours right after the chiropractor Thursday. We were excited. And I didn't realize until later I had pretty high expectations. She had another horrible night. I know we shouldn't have expected it to "work" right away but I surely wasn't expecting her to be THAT crabby. Last night was better as was today but still not as it should. But let's hope we are moving forward.
It's hard to be six weeks in and still not sleeping. I feel like we should have turned a corner by now. I was told six weeks is the peak of baby crying. Let's hope that's true and she will be less upset soon. This last week has definitely been the worst with her unsettledness. We miss sleep so much!
The lactation consultant RN came again yesterday and she was so kind and sympathetic to our situation. We tried to get Annalee to latch (on my right side where she never has latched) but she wouldn't. We fed her a bottle to calm her. She saw Annalee after feeding being obviously in pain and then told me until we can get her GI issues figured out, that she's just too uncomfortable to latch. Also, I'm still in pain trying so we need to figure that all out too. Once both of us are in less pain, then try to get her to latch.
She was glad my supply is doing well. I'm grateful because I feel like I'm pumping all the time. The thing starts saying words to me in rhythmic pump sounds. Most frequently is "black powder" and "nap time". I may be going crazy.
On top of this is my foot. It still hurts, more and more. I've been wearing my boot again and I have an appointment Monday to see what's going on. I try not think worst case scenarios. But a cast or surgery? Oh dear.
I'd like some chocolate but I cut out all dairy. I hear they make some though so I plan to invest in some soon.This mama needs a pick-me-up!
-Heather
1 comment:
i'm so sorry, friend. that sounds so intense and difficult! especially with having eli to also care for in the midst of it. relief and feeling settled are so elusive with the crazy of 2. if it's not one thing, it's another...or maybe 10 things at once! this weekend, oliver was out of town, i came down with a fever and all-out cold or flu, nora cried on and off all day, wouldn't sleep, fought naps, griffin was a total disobedient brat, i lost my voice, fell asleep TWICE on accident while both were awake....when it rains, it pours. and sometimes, it pours for so long, you wonder if you can hold on to your sanity! i'll pray for you, friend. i know you are so, so grateful and that is mingled with so much intense struggle with caring for annalee. i felt/feel that with nora too, and it makes me feel a bit ...insane?!! xoxo
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