Our family have been amazing to us during our grieving. My dad and sister were here for a week, Greg's sister Amy was here for five days, Greg's parents came the night Maelee was born and will leave in just a few hours and my mom leaves on the 24th. And the family that hasn't been here have been praying and loving us from afar.
They have been here for us, grieving with us, crying with us, allowing us to not say anything, to hole away in our bedroom or Maelee's room... and they have been serving us by cleaning, fixing and doing projects around our home. I won't even start listing all they've done.
It's been nice to not have to think about taking my medications or fixing my plate or being alone. And just as I was starting to freak out about Greg going back to work at the office on Tuesday (graciously, he's been able to work from home for the last few days) and my mom leaving next week ... my mother-in-law booked a ticket to come back on the 25th and my mom may come back in May, too. Not having a job or school to distract from the fact I'm not home with Maelee.... well, needless to say I'm anxious about being all alone during the days.
And thanks to those friends who have brought and are bringing us meals. It has been a big blessing for not only Greg and I but for our family.
And thanks to all those who are reading our blog, posting comments, keeping updated on our grieving, remembering Maelee. We all check the comments often - it really does help reading them and the e-mails...though it's hard for me to respond quite yet. Like Greg said, it's not so much what you say, it's that you are saying something. Thanks for the cards and packages in the mail, too. It's nice to have something like getting mail for Maelee to look forward to each day.
And thanks for all the prayers... we need you interceding for us to help us get through this suffering.
Just that Maelee must know how much she is loved... we know how much we are loved. It doesn't make this less devastating but it does make it more bearable somehow.